sleepless nitez

Sometimes I wonder why I bother. Things are actually quite simple if I leave them alone. This new role in the sound ministry, I just don’t get it, why do they tell you one thing then let you do another? Wouldn’t it be easier for them to just tell you “no”? And I’m shocked that indecisiveness also happens in a church. People management is so “commercial” or maybe it’s just me, I should not expect to it to be any different. I should apply what I do daily on Sunday’s too. yes, that’s what I will do. This way my “impact” will be felt (if that’s what they are looking for, else too bad)

I can’t sleep again… it’s painful at night recently… :(