3 guys and a young punk

Received an SOS call and had to rush out and meet the 2 of them, took me about less than 10mins to get to the only place that's open at 12mn. One VP, a Manager, a nobody and a young punk(bro). We had this serious need to get something, something that will just get us out of trouble. We had SOO MUCH laughter, and tears, that we totally ignored where we were.

After much tryout and pic. This is a preview of the final decision.


It's a waste of time, not to mention money. Yada was cursing all the way and Gadget was so fedup that he could not decide on what he want. The 3 of us thinks this is a pure waste of time. Seriously, RnD has better things to do, what was he thinking when he sent out that email? I will label him a Loser for Life if he does not come out with something. Why must things like this be one sided? It's not the first time, event are constantly pushed up our behinds without our consent. Respect is lost and the line is much thicker. And the meeting..? Why was my team and RnD left out of it? Might as well create an event just for those around his area? When did he ever ask anyone from finance per say about what they want? If not for the both of them i'd have given up on finding anything... especially after my friends made "so much effort" to want to help me choose something.. Thx thx... but ultimately, it's gonna be a draggy afternoon, not to mention the catered food. Maybe i should go da bao my own food and eat it in front of them instead. :P Happy Meal! i still have yet to lay my hands on it!

Lunch was with him, i was once again the "counselor" for internal issues. I've always tried to stay out of these, maybe i'll just touch and go and nothing concrete and deathly. I have no time.
That being said, i now know why the recent additional pressure he's placing on me. I will do my job, but i refuse to take on the new role. i just cannot get over it, the fear deep within keeps rising on moments like this, and i cannot let it happen again, not now, not ever. until i find a way to curb it, else ps leave me out of your equation.


i can't sleep again. I should find a chat mate from another time zone.
I'll try to NOT post any post event pics.

Yet another leaves

Ok. Every month someone’s leaves, and so yet another one finds joy in leaving this “what seems to be a fun company to work in”  place. We will miss his crazy laughter/jokes let alone his very audible vulgarities(my kinda guy)

 

If you’re reading this. Goodbye my friend, may you forever swear in whatever company you go from here on.

beeezeeee

crazy weekend i must say.
Went to the Nite Safari for Halloween, and it was fun!!!


i must go there once more tho, i missed all the educational part of it. Missed out on some of my favorite animals too. Gosh i love the otters!!!!

And muddy mud pie.. what can i say, topped with great fellowship, it elevates me internally that i can barely feel any evilness in me. (NOT) i hated the waiting in the car and people calling me all over and there's nothing i can do about it. Lesson to learn, unless you have something concrete, else don't bother making any dinner plans.

Sat was yet another crazy day, i had this kid that literally hung himself on me. Can you imagine me skating with a kid by my neck? I was so tired that i had to take a nap after that to regen.

Albeit my tired days, i went to buy donuts for the sound crew. And woot it tastes soo good!


ok ok I'm guily of one thing tho. i bought 12 of em, but I ate 5. you can't blame me! They were all so shy... and i could hear the round rounds calling out "Eat Me...Eat Me!" so i had to do what i had to do. And i was happy.

Today's dinner was a drag!!! i REFUSED to drive any there and i stared at my food most of the time. I was soo damn lost. The MC was a total ass. Fion said i did a better job at her wedding. :P The waiters/waitress were mostly from cheena land. I could hardly understand them! i asked one guy what kind of tea he served and he had no idea, then i got him to go into the kitchen to check and he came back telling me they also dunno what tea I'm drinking, huh?!?!
Then nvm, he can't even hold the spoon and fork in one had to scoop the food. He had this very fake "Excuse Me" accent that i mimicked out of the blue, a colleague of mine heard what i said, chocked and teared profusely. everything was so wrong. It was one of the longest moments i ever had. Like why did i even go for the wedding?

Wednesday is supposed to be a Halloween Party in my office, everyone is supposed to be dressed up or you will have to mop the office for a month. SW bought mops liao, i told him to get me one too. It's a waste of time.

Tomorrow will be a better day. The sun will rise once again and i will find joy again. My joy will overflow and affect the people around me, I will be strong and not be lead into darkness.

Till then, stay cheerful peeps!

Condescension

I end the very brain demanding day for me with this quote....

Condescension is one reason why healthy conflict becomes destructive. It's a conversational technique that many use without thinking, and others use with aggressive intention. Either way, it can hurt everyone involved.

mei mei

There's only 2 of these in sg, and i have one of it! woot!


Went out with some "uncles" for a game of pool. And i was pretty impressive today i must say.*nose high up* then i went to skate with bro and another guy, today i'm finally able to do what i was practicing for the longest time. The minute i left my office, i was happy all the way. I wasn't all chatty like my "abnormal" self but it's good to hear your friends trash talk each other. I was just so happy i didn't lose any of my leet pool skills. :P

i'm gonna hang my clothes up, will go try to get sleep after that. i hope my bro dun complain about me snoring out loud again. Don't blame me, i only do so when i lack sleep and am kinda stressed... -.-"

I'm LIVIN' it

Was kinda 'pressed, in office. So here I am, went to get my fav pizza
sub and my fav hideout.. ECP! Yup here I am, got my food in front of
me and I'm facing the great ocean while the breeze keeps me cool. gosh
I should do this often.

Real nice lunch getaway, gd thing I'm 'beach-ready' :p

Then again, I'll be here again in another 5hrs....

Memorial for the pig

"This site has been closed as a result of a criminal investigation by IFPI, BPI,
Cleveland Police and the Fiscal Investigation Unit of the Dutch Police (FIOD ECD) into
suspected illegal music distribution.

A criminal investigation continues into the identities and activities of the site's
users"


23rd October 2007. This day marks history in the "friendly" world. INTERPOL jailed the person in charge.. INTERPOL dammit!
Everything took a deep fall, i've been told even project black pearl is affected. I hope things get better, i don't want to be affected.

there's a light in everyone

i think it takes huge effort to stay hidden. Somewhere down the road you will be caught! Now that there's this suspicion in the air, i'll just play dumb, i sooo wanna reveal EVERYTHING.. but that's just not me lar... it's afterall not my problem. :P

My network's very stable now, it's lasted for the longest time, 27h 3min 45sec. I've this new range of toys to play around with and it's very helpful to be able to do all kinds of shyte in MY network. I feel evil all over again....

And yes, i suck big time at being selfish and I blame God for that.

These past few weeks I noticed something common. Everybody around me wants something from me, they want me to buy new machines for the office, they want to send me for some sound engineer training(without asking/telling me) they want me to bring them out for lunch/dinner etc etc.. so im on this constant giving mode. Then I realise that I don't have that "want" from anyone... as in i can live the whole day without "wanting" anything from anyone mortal. Maybe i can even do this for a whole week. Is this normal or am I fading away? Maybe I should have this want list instead? or maybe i should filter want lists from people? or maybe.. I'm just too sensitive...

To Give is better than to Receive.

(i just bitch too much)

Tee n Me

ok enough spree for this month. -.-"

Selfish week

Just like everyone else, I need some TLC too. :(

I initially had lots to bitch about. But I think I'm gonna keep it
short, I'm gonna go into hiding again this week. Life has just stepped
up on me.

good to have friends

I’m stumped by the things that’s going on with my office network. Things like this can only happen to the very simple me. As much as I want to… I cant run away from it all.

Sat was the day. The day when I did what I wanted to. I feel much better letting people in. Sometimes I just want to hide in the room all by myself and suffer in silence. Then again, it’s really good to have friends, friends who can share a different perspective and a slot for the needed QnA. I’ve met all my objectives and time will tell if this is the right move. I really really need quality sleep in the coming months. The story telling session was fun, and I appreciated the feedback both good and bad. I’ve learnt to accept the things that are even beyond my understanding and move on. Staying on the same line and trying to figure out what’s really happening theoretically may not necessarily be the best of choice. We all need to make bad choices at times, it’s how you get back up that matters. I know I’ve got lots to learn, but…..how? The server room is really cold, but is it cold enough to make me think under pressure?

thou art teered

I’ve been living on an average of 4hrs of sleep daily. This new office thingy has a hidden bundle of more work. Someone just left the company today, he was here for only one month and he could not take it. Even tho I knew him for like more than 6yrs, I was not close to him, but I knew what he was going thu. I was happy for him, really happy for him….. 2 new peeps joined us today and that makes it very much like a female dominated company. No wonder I’ve so much work lately… need to stay away from the females. For some reason I wasn’t quite happy with the way HR introduced them to me, I felt like trashing it out with him, but I think it’s wiser to sthu.

I got stuck while trying to figure out something and thank God for good friends. LW came to help… and together we got stuck. Appreciate his time but that showed that I was not that bad. I should buy him a dinner some day. Bitches like him not easy to come by.. wahahaahaha

Can I have permission to sleep Sir?

The countdown begins

The clock ticks life away. With queries of all nature and assumptions to your wildest imagination. I wonder if what I'm doing is right, what if I back out and decide not to do it? What if it's just a waste of time?

True friends give you the wherever/whenever statement and really want to to be there when you need them. They feel for you and will go the distance with you. I'm glad to have such a friend. I just want to do this while I still have the chance, I don't want to leave this world with any regrets.

HL threw in the towel. It came as a huge shock that my assumption was right. He gave himself away when he answered my question on the product roadmap and my wanting to work closer with him. He's a good guy with a huge heart, you can barely hear him speak but when he does it's real funny. The only time I heard him laugh out loud was when I was sending him home after a long nite of firefighting. I was just trying to lighten the mood a little. :p. I'm gonna miss his relentless pursuit of perfection, 2nd best is never an option. Take care my friend, WE will not only miss you but I'm sure working with RnD will never be the same again.

pulverized...

Now I have this feeling that it’s not very smart of me to mail my boss at 1am, requesting for a meeting on a non working day in the morning.

Today I realized that I lack knowledge, so I went wondering to check on what specifically I was missing out on. Lo and behold, I found the weakest link. I’ve got this issue about reading. Somehow unless it feeds my inquisitive mind 100%, else it’s a waste of time. I will keep going back to the first page over and over again. Now that I’ve identified the problem…. I don’t know what will help.

The recent contradicting road rage defined my maturity. Think I’ve got to know Guido a little more and I know when to step down.

There’s a meetup for someone’s “doomsday” I thought marriage was supposed to be a happy thing? And ya I got this really cool wedding invite from a colleague of mine. It’s like one of those DVDs you’d purchase from JB. Plastic covering and think prints inside with the “movie” details on the front and back. Expensive too. :P

I’ve just watched another movie call The Lookout. About this famous hockey player who got into an accident and made it affect his memory. Killed 2 of his friend and broke the leg of his passenger/girlfriend. He can’t remember things and have to write stuffs down in the notebook often. He worked in a bank, then one day some people wanted to use him to rob the bank that’s he’s working for. Lame ending when they all died in a shootout and he lived to tell the whole story. I dunno why I wasted my time watching it. Maybe I just wanted to waste time…..

Black or White?

I would step up everytime they needed my help. But when it's cancelled or if there is a change of plans, I'm just not in the loop. This time, I'm just gonna take the back seat.

They needed help to fill up the EXCO, and so I did. Now that the adults are busy with pointless emails I want to bail. I don't see things happening anymore. Who really wants to know what I think?

I gave some suggestions for my conference room and now its my duty to get it all up in one week. Huh??

I sent an email to the 'technical director' and he replied me CCing everyone else. Commented on my frankness and informed the rest to follow suite. 'Highly recommended you to be the ....' I think it's BS
I saw the promises they made to the rest and I just don't want to end up like them. My invasion may stir old issues..? Is it that difficult to want to help/volunteer?

I should really stop trying. The gutters seems like a nice place to hang out recently.

Sorry

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

Proclaim health and it shall be yours

I have 3 friends who were sick the last I checked. I woke up this
morning and I just know and I know that they will be well again when
the sun sets down today.

brain freeze

I've made one too many mistakes. Most of which were pure signs of the "slacklessness" When things go wrong people would normally find someone to blame first then try to work it out. On the contrary, i blame myself for allowing that person to make that mistake. Harsh? nah.. this is what the world is made up of... people who refuses to change. Like the training i went for some time back "Who Stole My Cheese" Changes are a must to improve, however humans are tough on changes. Like myself, i'm prone to coming out of my shell. I need this to stay alive, a different one for every occasion, the lines drawn real thick and nice and once in a while you break free. That is when you carve a new path and do it all over again. I live in this world, but i'm NOT of this world.

Office is getting real crappy, the platonic relationships are obvious and the back stabbing is normal.
My all time fav ... TRUST NO ONE

It's not easy to live not by what you see but by what you feel.
I see accidents every other day but i know i will never get to that plague.
i see people cry/bitch/fall out of the norm and i know i need to stay strong
I see things happen for no apparent reason,
that's where i hope not to commit treason.


If you need to, put the blame on me.

Vista Ultimate!!

I had to, its not an option for me. Even though I loved the old, the
new had to forcefully arrive sooner than expected. Here we go again...

The Reaping

The 10 deadly plagues in the biblie comes to life on screen. Great
movie with a dramatic twist and uber CG to end the suspense thriller
about a town that seemed to be 'jugded' by God.

Now let's see what's next.........

my crib

ok lets start with my mode of transport. From table to table and even to the boys room.

The above, a deadly weapon of quick rescue or vital getaway. With at least 4 of them placed in strategic locations around my office, colleagues will be more than willing to lend it to you.

I've started to unpack my first 2 boxes and i thought i'd be good if i could quickly call for a photoshoot.

I love them all.... of which were gifts. :)


I love these CONES!!!




The below was done last friday to my CEO's office. Of course, the CEO had no idea someone got mutilated the night before.


i should head on home early... for once. Lata'

555

With all their rides going up the dyno chart, I was lost when the both of them were talking in details. Not to mention my poor command of the ah beng lingo, overide had nothing much to contribute.

I hate it when he asks me to do ppt slides, I never have a direction/objective for them. Now that my table is up, I plan to have ONLY my toys on my table. Everything else will be on the one next to me, and yes I plan to hijack 2 tables. I have 3 boxes to unpack......I'm begining to build my walls in office.

Ok think I better go finish the budgeting spreadsheet and then maybe I can get an eye shut for a while.

Yesterday, Today, Forever You're the Same......

sleepless nitez

Sometimes I wonder why I bother. Things are actually quite simple if I leave them alone. This new role in the sound ministry, I just don’t get it, why do they tell you one thing then let you do another? Wouldn’t it be easier for them to just tell you “no”? And I’m shocked that indecisiveness also happens in a church. People management is so “commercial” or maybe it’s just me, I should not expect to it to be any different. I should apply what I do daily on Sunday’s too. yes, that’s what I will do. This way my “impact” will be felt (if that’s what they are looking for, else too bad)

I can’t sleep again… it’s painful at night recently… :(

Free Burma!

LAW OF THE GARBAGE TRUCK - Let the garbage go by

By David J. Pollay

How often do you let other people's nonsense change your mood? Do you let a bad driver, rude waiter, curt boss, or an insensitive employee ruin your day? Unless you're the Terminator, for an instant you're probably set back on your heels. However, the mark of a successful person is how quickly she can get back her focus on what's important.

Sixteen years ago I learned this lesson. I learned it in the back of a New York City taxi cab. Here's what happened.

I hopped in a taxi, and we took off for Grand Central Station. We were driving in the right lane when all of a sudden, and I mean without warning, a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, skidded and missed the other car's back end by just inches.

Here's what happened next. The driver of the other car, the guy who almost caused a big accident, whipped his head around and he started yelling bad words at us. How do I know? Ask any New Yorker, some words in New York come with a special face.

Now, here's what blew me away. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was friendly. So, I said, "Why did you just do that?

This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!" And this is when my taxi driver told me what I now call, "The Law of the Garbage Truck."

Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it. And if you let them, they'll dump it on you.

When someone wants to dump on you, don't take it personally. You just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. You'll be happy you did. I guarantee it.

So this was it: The "Law of the Garbage Truck." I started thinking, how often do I let Garbage Trucks run right over me? And how often do I take their garbage and spread it to other people: at work, at home, on the streets? It was that day I said, "I'm not going to do it anymore."

Well now "I see Garbage Trucks." I see the load they're carrying. I see them coming to drop it off.

And like my Taxi Driver , I don't make it a personal thing; I just smile, wave, wish them well, and I move on.

One of my favorite Football players of all time, Walter Payton, did this every day on the football field. He would jump up as quickly as he hit the ground after being tackled. He never dwelled on a hit. Payton was ready to make the next play his best.

• Good leaders know they have to be ready for their next meeting.
• Good parents know that they have to welcome their children home from school with hugs and kisses.
• Leaders and parents know that they have to be fully present, and at their best for the people they care about.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let Garbage Trucks take over their day. What about you? What would happen in your life, starting today, if you let more garbage trucks pass you by?

Here's my bet. You'll be happier. I guarantee it.

Work work

I'm still not happy with the outcome today. Tomorrow"s another long
day for me, ps let it all work for good. I can't beliff this is all
happening at once, things that are not in my control.... :(

Already hating it

I hate this place already.
I hate the socializing.
I hate the echo.
I hate the smell of it.
I hate the ah neh whose washing my car.
Period.

T - 7

I miss the sight of neat cables in a string of racks. What's really messy beneath shows no sign of panic in your face. Alas, it's something I've always wanted to do, and so I've done. Of course, I have the my slave to thank for for this setup. :P




I hope all turns out well when I get to office soon. Singtel is a real disappointment, my POC is barely alive and not to mention that ah neh from Singtel that I screwed in the morning deserves much more. I'm shocked at their noobness. i wonder who'll get shot after these traumatizing series of events. Seriously, between cyberspace and myself, I don't feel the heat at all. Yes it's a lot of work, and yes I hate it when things screw up on my end, then again, it's just a matter of time when all is well. Not all done by me of course(i'm really a POS)

I'm gonna try to get some sleep..

Round 1

I got my facts done up anticipating the series of emails to arrive. And true enough… “That is fucking bullshit…” so I’ve got the dates and key highlights all listed, email trails all forwarded and everyone’s that’s in this layed out. Albeit the above, something seems amiss, I can’t seem to be able to “blame it on someone” like it’s supposed to. No one person is responsible and there are many parties involved, it’s not new to me, but I’m not able to clearly state down who sat on it.
Time and time again I’ve realized that the things I’ve learnt in the past, minute and often taken for granted is the key factors for my often “not surprised this will happen” attitude. The so called phenomenal company has not been exposed to the SOPs of the leading IT industry, I’ve been slammed in the face one time too often. I will keep trying, not for their benefit but for my personal gains. One day I will be able to put my name on that piece of paper.


As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for

New office

Muahahah
What I anticipated came to past, no one really cared when I needed
more time, it happens so often, when I speak no one listens. And now the panic begins, I so love to see them scatter and find someone to blame, that's what they are good for anyway, to put all the blame on someone.

'You can put the blame on me,
You can put the blame on me.........

The Number 23

23 is my fav number. My hero, Jordan created history with it. But gosh this move is great! Dry and demands your attention constantly, one show to show the other side of Jim Carey. Damn the plot is stuck in my head. Kudos the the brain behind this, take my hat off for you.

Insomia. So frequent, yet painfully in pure existence. One has to
think of ways to wear yourself to the final drop.

This week I shall go into hiding. DND